Author: jennynazak

Feelings and emotions are not baggage … but they can come with baggage! If you are feeling overwhelmed by some feeling or emotion, chances are you are not simply EXPERIENCING that feeling — as in, being present with that feeling, without words, translation, judgment, resistance. Chances are that along with experiencing that feeling, you are also experiencing RESISTANCE to that feeling. For example you could be feeling sad or angry, and along with that sadness and anger you could also be feeling “It’s wrong for me to be feeling this way” or “I can’t stand feeling like this.” These layers of judgment intensify the feeling, and actually cause it to stick around longer because we are resisting just experiencing the feeling. It gets bigger and bigger and feels like it might crush you. I had spent some decades on the planet, being swept along on a stormy sea of feeling, before I got clued in to this. Wow, what a revelation it was for me to learn how to just feel pure sadness, or have a pure experience of anger, just be present with it. Also, to have a pure experience of happiness, without the accompanying feeling of “This won’t last” or “I don’t deserve this” or “When is the other shoe going to drop?”

A feeling by itself is actually quite a magical experience almost like a flavor of ice cream. Or the scent of a certain flower. And then, once it’s experienced without judgment, to see how quickly the intensity drops off and the feeling passes, like a cloud in the sky – what a revelation! Just one of the flavors of life, a pure experience. Experiencing is a skill that can be taught, learned, and practiced. And when you learn how to experience your feelings purely without the surrounding “junk” of resistance etc, it completely changes your life. A lot of pain and drama just drops away, and an enormous amount of energy is freed up. You might find yourself suddenly having all sorts of extra time for things you really want to do, or a huge influx of creativity. At least, that is how I have experienced it! Revolutionary.

You can build a whole life around avoiding/resisting feelings. You can build a whole culture around it! We sure have. Bad idea though, time to shake those chains. Feelings are an essential survival mechanism because they are our BS detector and our heart-compass and moral compass. You might think that it would be the thinking, intellectual mind that would have that role, but actually the intellect by itself is just a machine, and without the guiding influence of feelings, that so-called “smart” thinking mind will amplify all sorts of nonsense and get a person into all sorts of trouble.

To people experiencing unemployment/underemployment, student-loan debt, food insecurity, lack of access to health care, housing insecurity, and other harsh economic realities of today’s world, the seemingly irrepressible buoyancy of Wall Street might feel head-spinning or even possibly outright insulting. (I know I have often found it offensive on many levels, including environmental: Humanity is making a killing by plundering the earth and indigenous communities.)

Many times in past years, seeing yet another report of Wall Street bouncing back higher than ever while everyday life for most people seems, well, not prosperous, I have been baffled.

But more recently, I am no longer baffled, because I finally understand that the forces putting money in the pockets of corporations and shareholders are different from, and in many cases actually at odds with, the forces that would put money into the pockets of everyday people and their local communities.

Recently I came across an excellent article elucidating these forces. Alas, I failed to bookmark the article or even remember which publication I saw it in. I’m going to keep combing my e-scrap files and my brain until I dig it up for you, because with the Covid-induced unemployment and small-business failings (as the stock market meanwhile has bounced back with is its characteristic relentlessness), it’s really important right now more than ever.

In the meantime, I will share a thought I’ve had for awhile. Many people (possibly the bulk of North Americans) are fighting against themselves by being heavily invested in Wall Street while at the same time trying to earn a decent livelihood and make their neighborhoods/local communities more prosperous and livable for all. Am I saying don’t invest in stocks? Not necessarily. But I’m saying we have to seriously look into this connection. Or should I say look into this disconnection: Wall Street booming while Main Street is languishing. I’ve taken up this topic in my book and elsewhere on this blog. For one, here is my post about the folly of seeing Wall Street as synonymous with the economy; hope you find it helpful in getting a wider vantage point and exploring your options.

Oh, hey! This is not the article I was thinking of, but I just now found a goodie. “Why Main Street Is Suffering While Wall Street Is Soaring” (Martha C. White and Stephanie Ruhle; nbcnews.com). Very illuminating and succinct explanation.

How are things in your town or city? I hope you all are staying safe, while still finding ways to be part of the solution to systemic racism.

In recent days, I’ve been participating in some peaceful grassroots actions in my local area. Specifically: a march; a beach and neighborhood cleanup (organized by a local Black activist in reponse to community concerns about a mass social gathering that left a lot of trash on the beach and in neighborhoods); and finding ways to support Black-owned businesses in addition to my usual ways. Another peaceful grassroots action I’ve been doing is speaking up to offer a counterpoint to fellow white people’s racist speech and attitudes in online forums. This is hard for me, unlike the previous actions I mentioned. But it gets easier with time and practice.

Some thoughts, in no particular order:

• In my book, DEEP GREEN, I mention that I don’t waste my breath debating people who don’t believe that we are in a planetary eco crisis. If someone is entrenched in their belief, no amount of reasoning is going to convince them. Better to save one’s energy for positive action (such as teaching permaculture, solar cooking, climate action etc., to people who are seeking to learn). I realized this is how I feel about people who refuse to believe that systemic racism is a thing. Yes, the fact that there are still so many people who don’t believe that systemic racism exists is a big part of what’s keeping racism alive and well. I’m realizing I have to call it out when I see it. But am I then going to stick around for hours to engage in a debate to try to convince someone who is not at all open to seeing another viewpoint? No. Better (for example) to post worthwhile articles, books, and films on social media, where they’ll reach the eyes of people receptive to growing and learning. AND to keep working on my own evolution, to root out racism in my own self. On that note, the next book on my reading list is White Fragility: Why It’s So Hard for White People To Talk About Racism, by Robin DiAngelo.

And the next film on my watch list is Just Mercy (which Warner Brothers is allowing viewers to stream for free during the month of June 2020 to help educate people on the dangers of systemic racism).

(UPDATE: I have seen the film and read the book. Highly recommend both.)

• Systemic racism is a serious problem alive and well in the world. And there are a lot of people out there who are in denial that there is a problem. An alarming number. But I have high hopes that things will get better, and am doing my best to contribute to making them better.

• “Eco Plant Lady” note: I noticed I’m not getting as worked-up lately about the “fussy lawn brigade” with its gas-spewing, ear-splitting implements of torture. There are just bigger fish to fry in this world. It’s kind of a relief to not feel so derailed by leafblowers and all that stuff because I’m more plugged-in to higher priorities. Yes, I still find hyper-manicured landscapes distressing, from an aesthetic as well as an environmental standpoint. But I’m more able to keep it in perspective. And I keep on giving out wildflower seeds, talking up regenerative homescale landscaping practices.

• There are many times that I’ve spoken out, when I should have kept quiet, seeking to listen and understand. And there are times (possibly just as many) that I have kept silent when I should have spoken up. Part of how I’m trying to contribute to making things better, is by learning to get better at telling the difference, so I can do better next time.

I’ve been doing a lot of listening and reflecting. This post will be unfolding as I add more thoughts.

Bottom line: BLACK LIVES MATTER.

Recommended Resources:

My sorority, Delta Delta Delta, has posted this page of articles, books, videos and other resources for people seeking to educate themselves about racism. “Educating ourselves about the many aspects of racism and racial injustice – including privilege and bias – is one of the most important things we can do right now. This compilation of thought-starters and resources is a great way to get started.”

Anti-Racism Training: webinar by Diversity & Resiliency Institute of El Paso. Three modules, 2 hours each. I found this course very powerful. You get to hear short talks by many people, sharing their experiences and expertise. Website says the training has closed, but I’m including the link to it anyway in case they might offer it again.

Ally Henny on Facebook ; and her website. Writing and speaking about race, culture, and faith. Her Facebook posts and the discussion threads are very eye-opening for those of us who have been living in the white-privilege bubble. Note for fellow white people: I strongly recommend being in listen and learn mode on this page.

“Uncle Sam expects you to keep and raise chickens,” says a charmingly illustrated poster from 1918 (which I saw on Facebook). “Two hens in the backyard for each person in the house will keep a family in fresh eggs.”

1918 goes down in history as the last year of World War I, and as the first year of the so-called “Spanish Flu” pandemic. Now, a century later, our “war” is on multiple fronts including obesity, hypertension, diabetes, malnutrition, topsoil depletion, declining biodiversity, food deserts, mental-health issues, addiction, and household economic stress. Add to that the recent disruption of essential supply lines by Covid-19, and we’ve got a perfect storm motivating us to learn “old-fashioned” skills such as growing a garden and raising small livestock.

Many people now are growing vegetables, learning to sew and bake, keeping bees, raising poultry. Many many other people are interested in doing these things but aren’t sure how to get started.

One way is good old YouTube; you can find detailed how-to videos for any skill you can possibly think of, from pickling to bicycle repair to natural building. But there’s so much content out there that it can be overwhelming. And the quality of the instruction varies.

That’s where attending a curated event comes in handy. Yesterday I took the plunge and signed up for the Mother Earth News Fair. This fair has been held in person in different locations around the USA since 2010, but this year it’s happening online. (Hooray!) Turns out the organizers had decided to try an online option this year anyway, and the pandemic just accelerated their plans.

The Fair offers eight courses: 1) DIY Skills (encompassing such skills as solar electricity, humanure composting, and DIY farm tools); 2) Food Independence (including edible yard, yogurt-making, and such), 3) Livestock (poultry, cows, goats, rabbits…); 4) Modern Homesteading (including honeybee husbandry, wildcrafting, mushroom survival skills); 5) Natural Health; 6) Organic Gardening; 7) Practical Skills (vermicomposting, mycoremediation, sheet mulching, etc.); 8) Real Food.

If you register by June 20, you get all eight courses for $20, comprising a total of 50+ videos. (After June 20, the price goes up to $20 per course, which is still a good deal, but I sure like being able to get the whole kitten caboodle for $20!)

Each vid is only 20-30 minutes long, which should be just right to get an overview and enough pointers to embolden you to go ahead and get started with some basic carpentry, herbal tinctures, or whatever the topic is. If you’ve ever watched instructional videos that are hours long and super detailed, you might have noticed that you run the risk of getting bogged down and never getting started. (At least, that’s what I tend to do!) And really when it comes down to it, the best way to learn is by doing.

Mother Earth News is a mag I’ve been reading for awhile. Their articles tend to be thorough, yet easy to follow. So I expect the online fair will be similarly high-quality. (Oh, and unlike an in-person fair, where you have to choose from among concurrent sessions and cannot attend them all, the online fair will offer the videos pre-recorded, and they’ll remain available for you to watch and re-watch anytime in the coming year.)

This also solves the problem I’ve sometimes had in the past, when I’ve attended a super packed conference and gotten all charged up and inspired, only to return home and not remember this or that info; not feel able to get started on my own. I don’t think I’m the only one: I’ve seen people attend a class on composting or solar cooking, and years later they still haven’t done anything with it. I’m thinking that the format of the Mother Earth News Online Fair might just be the “secret sauce” that helps people navigate past the usual blocks.

To see the full list of video topics, and to register for the fair, go here. I hope lots of you will sign up! Let me know if you do. If there’s enough interest, we could even form a mutual support and encouragement group. The course videos will be released on June 20.

Remember that 1918 chicken poster I mentioned at the beginning of this post? It says at the bottom: “In time of peace a profitable recreation; in time of war a patriotic duty.” Amen to that! We are now in a time of war on multiple fronts, but we can increase our peace by building household resilience skills — and sharing them with our communities.

Speaking of peace, the 1918 poster has a special note for parents: “An interested child, old enough to take a little responsibility, can care for a few fowls as well as a grown person.” There’s a world of freedom, empowerment, education, and even behavioral therapy packed into that simple little sentence! I’ve seen very young kids on farms be very skilled and very loving at taking care of animals, when they knew it was their responsibility. If schools end up having to close again, it could be that part of the secret to keeping kids engaged, busy, and learning at home is as simple as a few backyard chickens or veggies.

As the pandemic shutdown has eased, invitations to in-person meetings have predictably begun arriving with greater frequency. And, I’m generally not accepting them.

This is zero about fear for my own health. It is somewhat about concern for public health, still. But even more, it’s about not being willing to go backwards, environmentally speaking and in terms of my own time and energy. Not just my time and energy either; everyone’s! Now that we’ve seen how much can be accomplished online, my tolerance for in-person meetings inside of air-conditioned buildings, and/or held in locations such that most or all participants have to use motor vehicles to get there, is approaching zero.

I do not miss riding my bicycle on unsafe roads (or rustling up fossil-fueled vehicle rides) to get to meetings. I do not miss all the plastic cups and other senseless trash produced by humans physically getting together in public spaces. And I do not miss the sheer amount of time it takes out of all of our days to travel to and from meetings.

Meetings that could be accomplished online just as well, or even better. Do I miss human face-to-face contact? No: I see my neighbors, essential merchants, and a steady parade of strangers in (social-distance) passing every day. I talk with geo-distant friends and family by phone; Zoom. I interact with clients by tele-technology as well.

I am just not willing to go back, now that I see it is possible to do things a different way. I am casting my vote for a new normal. My vote does not carry particular weight, and I do not flatter myself that I alone am going to precipitate some sort of shift. But I have one person’s worth of vote, and it feels good to know for sure where I stand.

I once read that in England, the electric company has to plan for a surge in demand during the halftimes of televised football games (or “soccer games” as we say in the USA). Why? Because of all those millions of viewers getting up during halftime to make themselves a cup of tea! No one organizes or plans this; rather, millions of individuals each decide to do it. And it adds up to a difference so big that even the power company has to plan for it.

This is how I see personal action. I’m only one person, but I get to choose. And who knows how many millions of other people may independently make the same choice. And it could even be that this blog entry will embolden you to cast your vote for a new normal as well. Be it deciding not to give so much money to big chain retailers, deciding to use a bidet bottle so you’re not at the mercy of toilet-paper hoarders, or putting your foot down about attending in-person gatherings needlessly.

During the pandemic I have attended multiple churches and lunch discussion groups; taken hours of webinars on stormwater management, promoting acceptance of native-plant yards in HOAs, and other topics related to my work as an eco educator; gotten to the root of my chronic back issues by taking a super effective core exercise class; caught up with old friends; done consulting sessions; and more … all online (or by phone). If I ever had any patience for the very limited viewpoint that “we just have to do this in person,” that patience is pretty much erased by the evidence of the past few months! (Particularly when it comes to environmental conferences, eco-minded organizations. Stop it stop it stop it, I say!!!!!)

As it happens, my neighborhood watch group is meeting this week — outdoors, in a park! This is partly because the building we use is undergoing renovations, and probably also a nod to lingering concerns over germ transmission. But an outdoor meeting is something I like from an eco-footprint standpoint as well. No lights or air-conditioning! Who knows, maybe enough people will accept meeting outdoors that we’ll end up making a habit of it.

I would love to hear your thoughts and experiences on this topic!

In the looming retirement-income crisis, I also see a silver lining. The economics of aging is forcing millions of us to live more frugally and to redefine what is enough. We’re cutting back, downsizing, and rethinking how we live, work, and play. But the problem right now is that, to most of us, downsizing looks like deprivation and loss. And we hate it. Small is not beautiful. It’s living in a shoe box without windows or Wi-Fi and paying $1,800 per month for the privilege.

Nobody wants that.

But what if we could flip the script? What if we could take the economic turmoil of forced downsizing and come out better—not because we accommodated the chaos but because we used the chaos to go where we needed to go in the first place? I call this idea “smalling up,” and it’s where the retirement-income crisis and the sustainability movement intersect. …

In other words, if we’re going to have to downsize, why can’t we “small up” and do more with less as a path to a more sustainable way of living? Why can’t we have more beautifully designed, space-saving homes and furniture made of eco-friendly materials? And why can’t they be affordable and available in the mass market?

The economics of aging may well force us in this direction. But isn’t this where we should be heading anyway to secure our futures and those of our children and grandchildren?

— Elizabeth White, in 55, Underemployed, and Faking Normal: Your Guide To a Better Life (Simon & Schuster).

I stumbled upon this quote today, in Ms. White’s book, which I just today started reading. Stumbling on the book was itself a serendipity; I had never heard of this bestselling title til today.

My home state, Florida, has a “sales tax holiday” period for people to purchase hurricane-preparedness supplies. Goods qualifying for the tax exemption include tarps, bungee cords, radios (powered by battery, solar, or hand crank), and portable generators. Besides those commonsense items, the tax holiday also inevitably includes one of my top pet peeves, bottled water. (I won’t go into yet another tirade about how I hate seeing people waste money on this stuff when they could just fill up reusable containers in advance from their faucets.)

One item not listed as a tax-exempt good is rain barrels. That is a shame, since sky-water is great for plants and for the skin (as well as for the wallet, seeing as how it falls from the sky for free). Tax-exempt or no, rainbarrels are an investment that pays dividends throughout the year, and I encourage everyone, regardless of whether you live in a dry or a wet climate, to get rainbarrels if you don’t have them already. Even just a barrel or two is a great start, giving you 50 to 100 gallons of rainwater storage capacity.

I’ve been collecting and using rainwater for years. My favorite uses for it, besides watering plants, are clothes-washing, bathing, and cooking/drinking. (You may need or want to filter your rainwater before using it for drinking or cooking. It makes tasty coffee, by the way. I boiled some up in the kettle just this morning.)

To me, the difference between stocking up on bottled water and collecting rainwater is the difference between household preparedness (on a very superficial level) and household resilience. Collecting and using rainwater gives you options; makes you less dependent on modern conveniences. And that feeling of reduced dependence carries over into a general can-do state of mind that helps you get through hard times and come out stronger.

Suggested homework: 1) Calculate your monthly water consumption if you don’t know it already. 2) Look up the average monthly rainfall in your area and the average annual total, if you don’t know those figures already. I used weather-us.com, and input my city (Daytona Beach). 3) Calculate how much water can potentially be captured off your roof in any given month, and for the year. (Here is my favorite rainwater-catchment calculator. This website, watercache.com, has a lot of other valuable info as well.) 4) Notice any differences between your household water consumption and the amount of rain you could potentially capture. In most cases, if you were able to capture it all, the amount of rain that falls would be far more than you could ever use!* (Do not rush out and buy a huge cistern though. I really recommend just starting with one 40- to 50-gallon barrel, maybe two. Or even just line up a bunch of buckets or other containers–whatever you have handy–under your roofline the next time it rains, and enjoy the experience of collecting and using free water from the sky.) Let me know how it goes for you!

Example: Where I live, April is our driest month; we get 2.2 inches of rain on average. Using the rain-catchment calculator, I find that my 1,000-square-foot roof has a total rainwater collection potential of 1,370 gallons from that amount of rainfall. My water usage is 300 to 450 gallons per month (10-15 gallons per day). So if I needed to, I could meet my water needs entirely with rainwater! (I’ve only got 450 gallons of storage capacity in barrels right now, but that’s OK, because my yard itself is a “sponge” that collects most of the water it needs without my help. So most of the water I collect in barrels can be used for human needs as opposed to plant needs.)

Rainbarrels are like a bank account for water. You can catch the surplus during abundant times, and use it to get you through sparse times. (An even bigger, more capacious bank account for water is the ground itself; I write elsewhere on this blog and in my book about how you can engineer your landscape to capture and store rainwater, making it less vulnerable to both drought and flooding. As the folks at the Watercache site put it, “Some people install urban rainwater harvesting systems because they have found that rain barrels just don’t hold enough water. As an added benefit to having free water to irrigate your landscape with, you can solve some drainage problems that you may be having on your property.”

*According to rainwater-harvesting expert Brad Lancaster (who I often cite on this blog and in my book), even in a super dry place like his hometown Tucson, enough rain falls to meet the needs of every resident, if people were capturing it and using it wisely. Which Brad teaches people how to do! Check out his YouTube channel; I particularly recommend his 18-minute TED talk Planting the Rain to Grow Abundance.